hi im new on here and looking for some help and advice im trying to stop my addiction and struggling the worst part is every time i slip up i want to tell my partner but cant bring myself to tell her. then she finds out and is obviously angry i never told her. i just cant get past that barrier of shame and fear of losing her to tell her it before she finds out. i used to automatically deny it when confronted then come clean later when pressed. iv got better at that and admitted straight off when last found out. i wanted to tell her but couldn't say it and kept putting it off and then it was to late.