Ivy

Hi. I'm new here. I just don't know anyone who has been through this. My husband's sex addiction came to light 5 years ago, which was 5 years into our marriage. Long story short, we had been together since high school, married young, and he managed to keep it a secret from me for all that time. It was devastating. We worked it out. Lots of therapy and counseling and groups. I thought we had rebuilt. My trust was restored. We had a couple more kids. I asked how he was doing often. Always good, according to him. We recently decided to upend our lives and move (far), which meant a new job for him and me needing to stay behind with the kids to sell the house in the meantime. Last night he finally admitted to a relapse. Not just this week, but off and on for the past year+. I just can't wrap my head around being so comfortable with lying to me. I feel played for a fool and I'm furious that he waited until I made massive life changing decisions with him to finally be honest with me. I am about to leave my home and my entire support system. I can't stomach the thought of leaving him, mostly because it would wreck my young kids. And despite it all, I do love him, I just feel like a fool and i don't know what to do. Has anyone made it through another bout of long term lies?