I have been in a relationship with my husband for 5 years and we/he have battled with his addiction to dating websites which he uses like porn and his acting out is getting progressively worse and worse. He has always gone out driving so he can access the site and go and meet women and admits to having physical contact with them in various forms ( says no sex but obviously that’s unlikely ) Unfortunately he left his phone line open by accident and I had the hideous experience of listening to it happening live just before Christmas. We have talked and talked and cried lots about this endless cycle of lying followed by huge remorse, guilt and shame and despite going through the NHS for help we have got nowhere during covid. I feel abandoned by the services and I don’t feel I have anywhere left to turn now. We have a beautiful 2 year old and I know he loves us both deeply but he can’t control this addiction and in turn it’s now controlling me. I so want to keep my family together but it’s looking so unlikely now that I am devastated. I know there is not a question here for anyone to answer but hearing other people’s stories makes me feel just a little less alone.