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    Hi Pippa I am so sorry you have had this devastating news. Yes, that is very hard to believe. Not sure what more I can say - have you challenged him any more on this?
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    Not quite success, but a ray of hope

    Hi Outofwishes Sorry, glad you came back. What a story you have. The good news is that despite a very difficult time, you have risen to the challenge and you are sorting your life out. Whilst you now have a criminal history and excluded from certain areas of employment and voluntary work, the truth is that you can still live a full life. I hope you find your niche, something that gives you real satisfaction in life, enough income and total recovery from your addiction. Keep coming back from time to time, we would love to hear how you are getting on.
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    Not quite success, but a ray of hope

    Hi Outofwishes Thanks for this, very helpful. It seems to me that being found out can, perhaps often, comes as a great relief. For me, I couldn't live with the deception any longer - so when things come into the light, I felt like I became more integrated. At SAA, most, perhaps all, often find it a relief even when the police have caught them and are facing trial. It demonstrates what a terrible affliction this addiction is - when we are relieved to be caught. Do tell us what the outcome was - please give us an update. Best wishes
  4. Have you looked here: https://www.nacro.org.uk/resettlement-advice-service/support-for-individuals/advice-prisoners-people-licence-sex-offenders-mappa/advice-people-convicted-sex-offences/ or http://hub.unlock.org.uk?
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    Sex addiction

    Hi Bereket Can you tell us more? What are you struggling with? I would recommend this post that has a lot of resources: http://paulahall.co.uk/forum/index.php?/topic/505-online-resources-for-addicts-wanting-help/
  6. Hi Matt That's great. I would recommend you read Paula's book too. There is also a post here [http://paulahall.co.uk/forum/index.php?/topic/505-online-resources-for-addicts-wanting-help/] with lots of good resources. Read up as much as possible and feed your motivation to get out of this addiction.
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    Hi Confused.com I suppose I would want to ask whether your addiction life makes you happy and builds your self-esteem. And where is it going? If it doesn't make you happy etc I would do everything you can to escape from it. I would recommend Paula's course - it enabled me to escape and get into recovery. Well worth the money.
  8. Hi Kat Wow - that does sound absolutely terrifying. My only comment is that it doesn't feel right that you feel you can't go to the police to bring a degree of safety to your children, home and work because he might get into trouble.......... When in addiction we are selfish, in denial and manipulative. Hence him turning on you. Those in addiction usually have to hit rock bottom before they go into long term recovery, maybe, maybe, this is what he needs. The loving thing is to hold your ground, assert your boundaries, and don't take on board his accusations. All strength to you.
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    Time to move on?

    Hi Cowslip. This is a journey - it will be right sometime to leave this forum......
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    Partner Recovery

    Rena I suspect the harder road is working this through together, and whilst the stakes are higher, so are the rewards. If you both recover/get through this - you will have a very strong relationship. It is too probably the riskier road......
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    No improvement

    Hi Rena Just read your post. He sounds like he is in denial and that he doesn't understand how mired he is in his addiction. If he doesn't know he needs help, it is very unlikely he will recover - addicts can't do this on their own. You aren't going crazy - it sounds more like he is manipulating you by blaming you for the situation. He is clearly not taking responsibility. Put your boundaries in place and don't take on his crap. Have you read Paula's book for partners? I would highly recommend it. Best wishes.
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    How do you move on and heal

    Hi Cheesecake. Addicts can be deep in denial, can be very manipulative and deceitful. I am sorry for your sad experience. Life can be crap at times. I don't have much to say, except that I hope you find the answers to your questions. There are men out there who aren't addicted to sex, or are in long-term recovery. I hope you find one that loves you and whom you fall in love with too.
  13. Hi Jem Sorry for the slow reply, I have been off-line for a few weeks. Guilt - gosh, there is a big subject. Guilt is a very complex area and raises some really interesting questions. I suppose I would want to dig into what sort of guilt your husband feels. Guilt is very closely allied to shame and I am persuaded is as much a spiritual issue as it is a psychological one. Off the top of my head (I think it needs longer!), I think there are 3 components of resolving guilt. 1. Repentance. This concept is often used in religious/christian circles but one doesn't have to be spiritual to take advantage of it. Repentance means, not just remorse but changing one's attitude and behaviour. I wonder if, pointing this out to him and 'accepting' his repentance, might give him some relief from his guilt? 2. Forgiveness. Forgiveness benefits the forgiver the most. You may have heard the maxim 'unforgiveness is like taking poison and expecting the other person to die'. Whenever a wrong is committed, a debt is created which cannot be repaid/undone. We use the concept when we use such phrases as "I will make x pay for this" or "she owes me". Interesting the original Lord's Prayer in the gospels of Matthew and Luke use 'debt' as a metaphor for wrong doing/sin. If you think about it, when someone does wrong against you, they take something from you - be it money, self-esteem, health etc. Such 'debts' cannot be undone, they cannot be paid back. Revenge doesn't give you your health back, doesn't heal your self-esteem etc. Forgiveness is then like cancelling the debt - striking it out. Tearing up the IOU. Forgiveness is a process and takes a long time. I wonder, if you are in the (long) process of forgiving him, telling him that might help - using the language of forgiveness. It might well cause him to cry, but it might help his guilt. The next step, once you have forgiven him, maybe for him to forgive himself. 3. Making amends. In SAA - one works to make amends. I find this very helpful. Whilst wrongdoing can't be undone and the debt can never be repaid, yet one can demonstrate a desire to put things right, acknowledge a debt to someone or society, and make contributions back. I suspect the best amend your husband can make to you is to actually put his life back together again, become healthy - to recover from his addiction. The second best amend (I suspect) is to help re-build your self-esteem and your marriage. I would encourage him to channel his guilt into making amends for the damage he has caused you and numerous others. I would be surprised if the above sorted it all completely but I hope it might help. It is a long journey.....
  14. A gentle reminder, this part of the forum is for success stories. PS Joshua - great point, so true.
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    Being fair to myself

    Hi Nanook Based on what you say in this post, and from personal experience (rather than as a expert therapist, which I am not!), I find it interesting that he doesn't try and appease/reassure you when he says that he didn't think about how you feel or think it was wrong. That makes me think he is telling the truth. I wonder, and everyone is different, whether he was addicted but is now in recovery, even if he doesn't call it that? It could last indefinitely but he would have a better chance of that if he did see it as an addiction and looked at the causes, had some support and made various changes to his life. You aren't being selfish at all. However addicts are very selfish and they lose their moral compass. Addicts it seems to me are actually very conflicted - deep down they often know what they are doing is wrong/shameful - that is why they keep it a secret. The problem is that they can't see a way out. They can't stop doing what they are doing - so they bury/deny/split off that part of their psyche that tells them it is wrong. It goes very deep it seems to me. The encouraging thing is that he now sees that and is 6 months into recovery (although he doesn't see it like that). That is basis for real hope. If he subsequently slips, that might be the moment to raise the question of addiction with him again. Given you have had the conversation already and he doesn't see it, I wouldn't I think raise it again - but that is up to you. If he doesn't slip, then perhaps he is right - he wasn't addicted, and even if he was - he has come free. Paula has written a very helpful book for partners of addicts - I would recommend it. I hope that is helpful. PJ